Returned, Refocused

Major life change. Transition. Two things that recently happened to me, and will be happening again in about 30 weeks. Pregnancy can be a part of womanhood. And we see the Lord's miraculous handiwork in every aspect of it. I have never felt ready to be pregnant. My husband and I have never planned a pregnancy. Each time I have been enraptured with the love that the Father has for this new life that He is creating, and the joy of being the vessel. Tonight I just want to think and pray through Psalm 139. Just to sit at the feet of Jesus and thank Him for this miracle of life begun in me, and to hear some of His thoughts on it. And to respond in worship. "For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb."

Prayer: "Oh Lord! I weep that I am indeed a mother. That You chose me to bear the children that You have given me! That You would look on Your servant, in truth, a foolish Gentile woman, yes, but You saved me, and grafted me into the Vine! Hallelujah! And now You are again forming within my womb a new precious one. Yet this child has known no days on the earth, but You have already written them in Your book. Oh forgive! Oh Lord, have mercy on the moments that I will fail this child! Lord, let me not sin against this untainted babe. Let me not follow my flesh, or be selfish, or angry, but let me always walk in Love towards all my children as You have walked in Love towards me. And Father, may they each come to repentance and salvation in Your Son Jesus!!! Amen and Amen."

Below find the lyric to a song that touched my heart so deeply during my first pregnancy.

Rachael Lampa \ No Greater Love Before I knew Your Name, You knew my ev’ry breath. Before I found my way, You knew my ev’ry step. Before I knew everything that I need, You gave it all to me. No greater love than this… That You should lay down Your life For someone such as me; I’d spend a lifetime wondering why. The Beauty of Heaven Is here in my heart And I know there can be No greater love than this. I never understood How merciful Love could be, Until I felt His Flame Light every part of me And I would give everything that I am ’ Cause I have been saved; Yes, I have been saved! No greater love than this… That You should lay down Your life For someone such as me; I’d spend a lifetime wondering why. The Beauty of Heaven Is here in my heart And I know there can be No greater love. The Beauty of Heaven  Is here in my heart And I know there can be No greater love... For someone such as me. No greater love...than this.